Hati.

semue taw hati en? kalo tataw hati. maty cepat2. :) . okay2 here. Hati manusia ade pelbagai rasa ~ perasaan laaa. syg benci cinta dengki syukur ta puas ati. sume la. ta cye? tnye diri sniri okey?. na cerite nie. Dlm hati meela cume ade ruang utk yg tertentu je. Allah is the most important. ofcourse he always in my heart. He create me. he give me life. He create world with no other hand help him. He create evrything alone. Subhanallah. I'm glad untill now i still can see the sunshine. n i still can see n talk to my family, fiancee and friends. First place in my heart is Allah and its never change. Second place in my heart is my family. as they take a good care of me since i'm just a baby. untill now i'm 18 :) . Mommy give me some milk for me to grow up. daddy buying needs. well i love em. dun u love ur family? . i bet u do. Here third place is my fiancee. he accpt me for who am i. when i'm sick, i see tht he's the second person who worried about me after my family. i'm ugly, i'm fat, i dun know how to treat ppl well. but he always there for me. he accpt me eventho i always hurt his feeling. he's kind person. n because of his loyalty, he make me feel dat he's the one for me. i'm glad tht i meet him. n Thank you Allah. untill today, u give me life. so i can see him, i can talk to him. i can touch him. The conjecture u give to us to test our faith n loyal is too big, too strong, my Creator (Allah). but as we love eachother. we keep our heart strong. I Love you Shidi, fiancee. <3 big hug for u fiancee- . Fourth in my heart is my friend. As they always support me :) . Allah my Creator, Family, Fiancee, Friend. you're always in my heart. forgive me. Forgive me for what i'd done before. To all my hater. Keep hate me. i dun mind. but please find me and seeking for forgiveness from me when the judgement day begins. i'll forgive u if i could. :)

MAY GOD BLESS YOU FAMILY, FIANCEE, FRIENDS.

ALLAH MY CREATOR,BIG THANKS TO YOU BECAUSE OF YOU I CAN STILL SEE 

THE WORLD.

Sunday Morning 5,12 A,M

erm i'd been woke up from sleep with a bad news. My aunt just pass away. why you leave us so soon aunti? but u have to rite? God need u more. God love you. God really love you. but me as a human. i really2 can't accpt tht u already passed away. my father's sibling suppose to be 14 . but now just 13 left on this earth. 13 still can see the sunshine. aunty, Rest In Peace okey? i'll always Doa Al-fatihah for you. I'm sad. Saturday morning i went to UM Interview. UM call me. then after tht i came to visit you aunty. you look so stable thn before. i tot u'r going to realease from ward. but u'r not. whats make me angry? is when nurse didnt tell us tht ur leg is already straight. n tht sign is for tell tht u'r going. n n u didnt eat anything for almost 2 month. omg. thts hurt. really hurt. aunty i write this because i miss you. i really miss you. u'r kind womn tht i ever met. aunty u already stop working. thn ur Pencen Money. u'll give us evry month. what? are you kidding me? btter you keep tht money. if u sick u can use it. erm. aunty i dun know why i'm crying. now if i go to Petaling Jaya house must be so empty. no one gonna ask me. "jihah do u want Cup of Milo with Ice or what? Aunty pah boley buatkn" usually u cll me "feqah" for the first tyme then u'll correct it "jihah" n u'll say "sorry la. selalu confuse anak joe nye name" hahaha. aunty its okey. i dun mind. u can cll me what eevr u want. I'm crying aunty. aunty did u hear me? hmm last night when we're do Tahlil. n we read Yasin for you. U show ur soul to Aunty Shirah. U see us rite? why u sit away from us? why you have to hide urself besides friedg? erm. 7 day for u to come back home then after dat u'll be away from us forever. here i would like to say thnk you aunty.

My beloved Fiancee shidi

first i would like to say hye to you syg. :D . how are u? haha. u know what. i just read this kind of book. islamic book. wow ! islam make me feel more calm ~ . n teach me how to be strong girl. now i wanna say tht maybe i'm strong enough rite now. but yeaaa still need more advice. the only thing i do is pray to Allah. n i do regret about what happend. i just pray to Allah to keep safe. i always do ask Allah to protect us from Iblis. n Third person. its only because i wanna take a good care of our relationship. When i hear ceramah tht nyte with u. i feel like OMG seriously? . n then kite tunang. huh yay !. but i just wondering. what kind of conjecture will Allah give to us to test us? our loyalty n faith. i just want you to know tht evrynyte i do ask Allah to make u stay with me. to make our love really2 strong. He can help us. He is so powerful. can;t compare with others. haha. I hope Allah listen to my Doa tht i ask him to do. n make it real happen. i always be there for u my sweety fiancee.

I LOVE YOU SO DAMN MUCH SHIDI <3

I LOVE YOU SHIDI

i wanna make you happy with me syg. :) seriously. i'm not joking. after all this happen. i promise to myself. i wanna take a good care of ur heart. i wanna be a good girl for you. i dun want to hurt ur heart anymore. i know n i'm thinking abt u always scrifice for me. i will make u happy with me. i promise. n be loyal n be honest to you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SHIDI <3 .

my only boyfriend. shidi

today i promise to you i want to make u happy. n be loyal to u. i want you to know. i will use dis chance u give me dengn sebaik2 yg mungkin. i can't stop crying. cause i'm still scared. always scared to lose u. always scared tht u gonna leave me. can u promise me one thing? dun ever leave me. can i be a good girl for u? just once in my life. i want you to know tht i love you so much. i will do anything for u as long as you happy with me. i'm going to be a faithful person for u. i will be honest to you on what i'm doing. i will tell you evrything. evry single part of my life. i promise. n swear to god i'll be with you forever. i'm gonna be ur gud wife and so a gud mother for our child like u ask me before. i promise.

Shidi.this one for you

b bby mntk maaf sngt. bby tkt bende yg nie blaku lagy. tlng b. stop kan bende nie for our relationship. kite da almost 3 years. erm bby ta pna bosan ngn b. bby harap sngt b please stop kan bende nie. i'm begging you. if bby boley melutut kt b. bby da buat b. i just want you to know. how much i love you. my family love you. u did evrything. bby tkt sngt. last night on the phne dgn b. i'm happy. but inside i'm scared to lose you syg. erm just wait for me. you promise me tht u will stay with me forever. ta pna lupe. n bende tu bby harapkan setiap ari. when you said you will take me as ur wife. i feel so happy. u said. just one more step. den we get marrie. erm i will wait for it syg. n hoping for it. forgive me on wat i'd done to u syg

Shidi, forgive me please

i na u taw sumue bende arinie. bia la arinie u rase skt ati. u rase sedey. bialah arinie ari last i buat u mcm tu. n bialah arini jdy ari last i tipu u. i da bagytaw sume. sume n teperinci. erm my fault. Boyfriend, please take a good care of urself syg. i love you so much shidi. thnk you